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Infidelity
Saturday, May 19, 2007I'm into this Kuro Filipino Forum and just recently we were discussing about "releasing and letting go". Of course, I had my fair share of thoughts..
The question was "kung iniwanan/pinagpalit ka ng mahal mo, palalayain o ipaglalaban mo ba sya?" As expected, everyone violently reacted hahaha! Iniwanan na daw pala bakit pa ipaglalaban and so on.Well, everyone is entitled to their own opinion.
But I made a follow-up question para mas magulo ang usapan "eh kung di ka naman iniwan, nag-two time lang sayo? Anong gagawin mo? Hahayaan mo na lang dun sa isinabay sayo o ipaglalaban mo?"
This is what I replied "I was once a victim but… I did not let go. Nakipaglaban ako….
Releasing kasi is as easy as ejecting a CD from a player. But letting go is far different from it. Nakapagrelease ka man pero ang tanong, have you let go? Kung susundan mo ng letting go ang releasing na yan, then only you can tell, you're free from that pain.
Pero minsan sa mga taong nabibiktima ng infidelity, di na kasi natin naiisip yung naging value sa atin ng taong lumoko sa atin. When I was in that situation, syempre initial reaction was galit ako! Ayoko na blah blah blah! Ang nasa isip mo lang at that moment ay yung maling nagawa nya.
Let's be fair din minsan. Isipin din kasi natin yung mga "magagandang" nagawa niya sayo, then weigh and evaluate it. Kung sa tingin mo naman karapat-dapat na ipaglaban, why not? Walang masama kung dun ka liligaya."
I guess experience is the best teacher…
May sense ba sinabi ko?
When Paranoia Attacks
Thursday, May 17, 2007Paranoia is an excessive anxiety or fear which is considered irrational and excessive, perhaps to the point of being a psychosis.
Being paranoid is not healthy at all, I suppose… But I'm not saying that you can't be one of those who frequently and excessively thinks that it could be you they are talking about. Coz I myself feel the same way at times. And when I do, I feel guilty upon realizing it wasn't me after all.
I am not imposing anything bad here. Just got disturbed for a moment. Being told that I was "aloof" for the second time (when I am not), has led me to confusions. Why would you think that? I hear you… I heard you… I even replied. But your silence now makes me paranoid.
What did I do wrong that made you feel that? If you are reading… I am just waiting. Let's talk about it. Who knows I could be of help. Or maybe we could both cure your paranoia. Even if you say you are not, I guess you are.
Being A Mother
Inspired by Sexy Mom
"is a continuous learning experience", she commented… And now stuck on my mind. Sure it is a never ending learning process.
When I was a child, I always feel bad when my mother scolds me for just small mistakes. I didn't have any idea why would she do that. All I knew was she's a nagger on her own style. Those blah blah blahs, better be home at 11pm when I go out, to think "gimik" starts at those times. No no no, etc etc… I didn't know… really…
Until I became a mother…
From the day on when I conceived till this very moment. All those backaches, cramps, craving, sleepless nights, no-to-social-life-things, tons of household chores, baby care and so on… I realized… it is never easy being a mother.