When Paranoia Attacks

Paranoia is an excessive anxiety or fear which is considered irrational and excessive, perhaps to the point of being a psychosis.

Being paranoid is not healthy at all, I suppose… But I'm not saying that you can't be one of those who frequently and excessively thinks that it could be you they are talking about. Coz I myself feel the same way at times. And when I do, I feel guilty upon realizing it wasn't me after all.

I am not imposing anything bad here. Just got disturbed for a moment. Being told that I was "aloof" for the second time (when I am not), has led me to confusions. Why would you think that? I hear you… I heard you… I even replied. But your silence now makes me paranoid. 

What did I do wrong that made you feel that? If you are reading… I am just waiting. Let's talk about it. Who knows I could be of help. Or maybe we could both cure your paranoia. Even if you say you are not, I guess you are.
 

Being A Mother

Inspired by Sexy Mom

"is a continuous learning experience", she commented… And now stuck on my mind. Sure it is a never ending learning process.

When I was a child, I always feel bad when my mother scolds me for just small mistakes.  I didn't have any idea why would she do that. All I knew was she's a nagger on her own style. Those blah blah blahs, better be home at 11pm when I go out, to think "gimik" starts at those times. No no no, etc etc… I didn't know… really… 

Until I became a mother…

From the day on when I conceived till this very moment. All those backaches, cramps, craving, sleepless nights, no-to-social-life-things, tons of household chores, baby care and so on… I realized… it is never easy being a mother.